Friday, October 1, 2010

242 lbs

WOO HOOOOO!!!!!  It's finally official!  Down 50 pounds!!!!

Can't take a lot of time to blog this morning, but do want to do a brief catch up.  To make a long story short, I've learned that I have an allergy to potatoes.  They really do a noticeable number on my knee - swelling, pain, weakness.

I decided on Tuesday to make myself eat clean (as in no foods that could possibly cause allergic reactions) just to see how the knee would do.  I thought if food could make it so dramatically worse, then I wondered how much better the knee might get if I eliminated those foods.

I was shocked.  Not just by how much better the knee got, but by how fast it got there.  On Tuesday, I ate a parfait from Whole Foods about 11 am, but after that I had a steak and a salad made with lettuce, raspberries, and red bell pepper.  The salad dressing I made myself with olive oil, lemon juice, salt and pepper.  Then I was busy the rest of the day and didn't eat again.

So Tuesday night my knee was painful and too swollen to straighten all the way.  By Wednesday morning I could only detect very slight swelling on only minor discomfort.  I could straighten it completely and it felt pretty strong.  Stronger than it had in a long time.

So Wednesday I made a roast and had roast beef and another salad for lunch.  For dinner I had roast beef and a coconut milk smoothie.  Yummm.  Delicious and fast.  I also had to switch to my skinny jeans as the other ones were starting to fall off.  And I'm thinking I'm going to need some new bras as well. 

So I'm really curious how much weight I could lose if I can manage to eat this clean for a week.  I'm going to give it my best shot even though I start hospice this evening.  However, this is my last week on call.  After this I start my new job at the inpatient center.

Oh, another thing I noticed is that the eczema at the corner of my nose and the patch on my right eyelid cleared up pretty fast.  I still have areas on the back of my hands and on my forearms and the skin around my lips is quite itchy.  It had been better yesterday so I'm wondering if there was something in few slices of deli ham I ate yesterday that made it worse.  Also, I realized that I probably shouldn't be eating bell peppers as they are a nightshade just like potatoes are.  Will keep experimenting and let you know!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

247.4 lbs

It's been way too long since I've posted here.  These last couple of months have been so very busy and I've gone no where with the weight loss, but at least I haven't gained any weight back either.

I'm still in a holding pattern, working with the physical therapist, trying to get this body to the point where I can exercise without it breaking down in some fashion.  We are making headway, but not quite there yet.  I don't have time now to write about it, but I am making a concentrated effort to cut back on the carbs enough to start losing weight again even without exercise.  Thus the need to post my weight again.

Friday, July 16, 2010

245 lbs

I've finally decided to stop putting the number of days in the heading.  It's been so many now that it's become meaningless.  This is no longer an experiment or 'diet'.  It's just how I live.

Once again it's been 2 weeks since I last posted.  I'm just too crazy busy on the day I start back to hospice to blog and the week doesn't get any better from there.  I was at 247.6 last week still so am very glad to get the new lower number on the scale this week. 

I'm now officially down 47 lbs.

That's a great number and I'm very happy about it.  I continue to see changes in my body.  I was able to buy 1X shirts for the first time this week.  I've been a 2X forever so that was really cool.  I can see the curve of my waist starting to return near the bottom of my rib cage and the rolls on my back are much smaller.  Can't really call them rolls anymore.  More like speed bumps! :-)  Still, here it is the middle of July and I have yet to hit 50 pounds lost when I was hoping to make that number by the end of May.

Oh how I long for the days when I was losing 2 1/2 pounds a week!  On average, I've only been losing half that much lately.  Oh hell.  Actually that's not too bad.  Just gives my skin time to keep up with the weight loss.  My stomach and butt seem to be doing quite well in that department.  My upper arms and thighs are another matter entirely though.  I'm hoping weight training will help with that down the road.

Speaking of weight training, lots to report on the knee for the last 2 weeks.  Last week the knee was terrible.  It never got better on my week off of hospice like it had done in the past so I started my hospice week with an already swollen and painful knee.  I didn't even attempt any of the PT exercises last week as I didn't dare make it any worse.

By Monday (4 days ago), it was as bad as I've ever seen it.  Luckily I had set an appointment to see Chris (the guy I went to for the Rolfing sessions) that day.  The plan was to see if he could help me with my remaining trouble areas - mainly the knee, lower back and neck/upper back area.

He started out working on some myofascial release in the knee/thigh area, but it was too painful so he switched over to a technique that I don't know the name of, but it was essentially all energy work.  He would just rest his hands lightly on various areas (calf, knee, all along the adductor that I have so much trouble with, etc) and just leave them there for a while.  Not massaging, just resting/holding.  You would think that not much would happen from such a simple technique, but that wasn't the case at all.

It all started out so innocuously.  Chris had his hands around my calf (I think.  It's kind of hard to recall at this point.) and I started to feel twinges of pain in various areas of my leg including my lower back/gluteous area where all the pain was when I hernieated that disc 3 years ago.  Occasionally there would be a sharp pain.  Almost like an electrical shock.  These were mostly in the inguinal area if I remember correctly.

Not long after he started I felt sadness start to wash over me.  It felt odd because I hadn't been thinking of anything that would make me sad.  In fact I had been enthralled by the sensations in my leg and the fact that I could feel the energy moving around in the leg in various areas and various rhythyms and it was even more cool that Chris could feel the same rhythyms as I was.  It was a whole new way of communicating with another person.  Very hard to describe.

I'd worked with Chris enough to know that it is not unusual for his kind of work to release emotions that get stored in the body, but that's a hard concept to grasp.  I know when we did the 10 series that he mentioned it was not unusual for emotions to come up during the work, but for me nothing ever did until near the end of the sessions when he was working on my right shin in the area that has a dent in it from a motorcycle accident that I had at 18.  I started to feel an intense fear, verging on panic. While it was happening I lay there and tried to just experience it all the while being amazed that I could feel such intense emotion simply because someone was working on my shin.  The part of my mind that was panicing was sure my leg was about to break from the pressure Chris was applying.  It couldn't do that of course.  Chris wasn't pressing that hard, but in my mind I wanted to kick and pull away and make him stop, not because it hurt but because I was terrified.

Strange stuff this mind-body connection.  Usually it's just a theory, but there are realms where theory turns into reality.

The wave of sadness lasted about 20 to 30 minutes I would estimate.  I started crying, not in a sobbing kind of way, just tears leaking from the corners of my eyes.  I wasn't remembering anything in particular during that time.  My mind just kind of wandered back through my life, but the two strongest memories were of my failed marriage and my parents divorce when I was 7.

Then finally, the sadness faded and was gone as if it had never been there to start with.  It came and went like a summer shower and now the sun was out again.  I felt very languid and peaceful at this point.  I went back to paying attention to the sensations in my leg.  Feeling the pain move from area to area and back again and feeling the energy pulsate subtly.

Chris worked on me this way for over an hour.  Maybe an hour and a half.  I don't know if that was hard on him or not.  It seems like it would be very draining to me.  I don't know because I didn't ask him.

Now if the story ended there it would be remarkable enough, but it doesn't end there, not by a long shot.

My appointment with Chris was at 1 PM.  Around 8 PM that night I noticed that my knee was feeling ..... different.  Like it had turned a corner and was starting to heal.  Now mind you, Chris never once said anything to me about my knee getting better.  I mean the whole idea of the appointment was to help the knee by maybe loosening the fascia that might have been constricted and creating misalignments but, of course, after having the sadness released I was thinking that was going to be the effect of the energy work.  It really never occurred to me that there would be any immediate physical changes in the knee.

The next morning was a shock though because when I woke up the swelling in that knee had decreased by about 75%.  It was such a shock that my mind just couldn't process it.  Things like that just don't happen.  Now remember, this is the knee that just 24 hours before had been in the worst condition it had ever been in and that a week of rest had not brought any improvement to it and that it had only mildly responded to a half hour or so of massage that my PT had given it.  And here, suddenly, Tuesday morning, I awoke to find the knee undeniably improved after Chris did 'nothing' to it.

Since such a result is so far outside of the convential view of reality, I just brushed it off with a "Huh.  That's cool.  Weird, but cool." and went about my day.  I did talk to Chris and told him what had happened and briefly worried about what I would tell my PT the next day.  He was going to want to know what I had done to make the knee better.  I was praying he had an open mind.

The next morning I was surprised again.  The knee felt even better than it had the day before.  That was another shock.  It hadn't occurred to me that it would keep improving.  To me just having that much swelling disappear was miracle enough.  It didn't even enter my mind that the knee might continue to heal.

When I saw my PT later that day and explained to him that I was not a nut case and that my knee really had improved that much due to energy work, he was great.  He's been a PT for over 30 years and had seen the mind/body connection manifest in various ways before so he was completely accepting and in fact encouraged me to do more of the energy work with Chris.  The coolest thing though was how he could validate how significantly improved my knee was from the last time he'd seen me the week before.  It wasn't just a figment of my imagination!

That was Wednesday.  The knee has continued to improve.  It is now Saturday morning (even though I'm supposedly writing this on Friday, but I was too busy yesterday to get to it).  I almost can't comprehend how much my knee has healed.  (I know I keep saying that, but it is really hard to comprehend.)  Practically all of the swelling is gone.  I don't feel any tightness in the knee at all when I bend it.  It's almost the same size now as the uninjured knee execpt for some swelling on the outer side of the knee cap.  There is still some discomfort, but it feels strong again.  I have full extension in it again and can walk without a limp.  For all I know it will just keep this up until it is completely healed.  Nothing is outside the realm of possibility anymore as far as I'm concerned.  Still, I'm scheduling another appointment with Chris in a few days.  I think it will help.

So that's my story and I'm sticking to it.  I'm just so excited that I can now see the possibility of getting back to exercising again.  I have things I want to do and games I want to play and I need two good knees to do them!

Friday, July 2, 2010

Day 164 247.6 lbs

Yes, it's been 2 weeks since I last posted.  I was so busy last week I didn't have the time, but my weight last week was 249 lbs.  And now this week basically the same as it was 2 weeks ago.

I have actually been doing pretty good food-wise the last 2 weeks so I can only say that it has something to do with not being able to exercise like I used to.

I had my first real PT session a couple of days ago, so now I feel I am officially on my way to recovery, but it won't be fast.  Edward Drangle, my PT, only adds exercises one at a time so if something starts hurting then we will know which exercise is doing it.  Plus my treading water has been cut back to only 20 minutes every other day so we can see if that is hurting my knee.  I actually did my first 20 minutes yesterday and my knee has been hurting more ever since so I'm trying not to get discouraged.  At least I know I did the right thing by going to a PT.  It was all just too complicated to figure out on my own.

For example, since herniating my L3 disc 3 years ago, the adductor in my right thigh has not been right.  Right after the herniation, I wasn't able to lift that right foot up to set it on my other knee so I could put my shoe on nor could I raise it up high enough to put my pants leg on either.  All that improved so I didn't realize it still had some weakness, but that weakness has made it difficult for my right leg to keep up with my left leg when walking.  Since the adductor is weak then my body had to recruit other muscles - esp in the lower back - to get that leg moving otherwise I'd just fall flat on my face.  Just another piece of the puzzle....  Now we have to see to what extent we can strengthen that adductor again.  No telling if there is permanent damage there or not.  It sure feels like there is though.

Also it is amazing, but Edward had me feel the difference in the muscles between my two legs and while there is some tone in my left leg (what little I can feel underneath all the fat that is - ugh!), my right leg muscles are just mush.  But it was knowledge like that that let me know I found the right PT.  I have so much confidence in him.  He's very zen-like in the sense that he seems to know how to just be in the moment.  In other words, when he is working with me his focus is solely on me and then when my appointment was over he moved on to his next client and gave his whole attention to him.  I really like that.

I had to join a gym near my house as Edward is clear across town from me and it wasn't very practical for me to drive all that way so often.  This gym is just 2 blocks from my house.

So, even though the weight loss has slowed way down, I am still losing and there is still so much room for improvement that I'm not discouraged.  It's not like I'm working as hard as I possibly can and still not losing weight.  Once I'm better I can exercise again and perhaps finally start doing sprints and build muscle all of which will speed up fat loss.

I'm very happy with what I've accomplished so far.  45 lbs is nothing to sneeze at.  Even if I didn't lose another pound for the rest of the year I would have won because for so many years I faced one New Year's after another where my weight hadn't dropped or (more usual) had increased over the year.  This year I know for certain that I will end the year at least 45 pounds lighter than when I started.  I can breathe easier, bend easier, and move easier than I could in January.  So while I wish I was still losing 2 1/2 lbs a week like I did in the beginning, I'll take any weight loss I get at any rate it comes.  At least, after 20 years, I've finally figured out how to do it.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Day 140 247.8 lbs

Wow what a week. Down 3 1/2 lbs.  I think it's safe to say I'm off the plateau.  Woo hoo!

So that makes 44.2 lbs lost up to this point.  Still can't quite comprehend it, although I did start to feel yesterday like my hips were smaller which is kind of cool.  And for some strange reason I didn't expect this slow fat loss from all over my body all at the same time.  I guess I thought the belly would go flat first and then the hips and thighs etc.  But that's silly of course.  Strange what ideas can creep in and you not even realize it.

Probably the best part about this week is that I managed the weight loss without any exercise whatsoever because of needing to rest my knee.  It's given me a sense of relief that I now know I can keep losing weight even while I spend the next 3 months rehabing my knee.  My chiropractor says it's the ligaments around the knee that aren't keeping it stabilized and in its correct position which then affects the joints above and below the knee.

One thing my last appointment with the chiropractor proved is that part of the pain with the knee is just misalignment, because about half of the pain I was having went away after he adjusted that leg and the lower back/sacral area on that right side.  It continues to amaze me how much misalignments affect me.

So the chiropractor (and I now think he is the best chiropractor in the multiverse - that's multiple universes for those who don't watch the Science Channel :-) says I'll need to wear a knee brace to keep the knee in alignment while it heals over the next 3 months.  I see the physical therapist for the first time on Tuesday so will see which brace he recommends before I buy one.

I also guess I need to go back to wearing my orthotics.  I stopped wearing them because I know I won't strengthen my feet and leg muscles enough to keep me in alignment while wearing the orthotics, but I know it's too soon.  I still weigh too much and need the orthotics to keep me stable so my knee will heal so I can exercise and get healthy so I don't have to wear orthotics!  I always have been the impatient sort, but I don't want to be stubborn about it.  I just want to get well and get healthy-er.

And for those interested in what I ate this week... I still was far from perfect.  There was that one night that I stopped at the gas station on the way to make a visit and got a package of Hostess Cupcakes and some cheetos and then the hawaiian pizza I ate one day.  However it was only a 10 inch pizza and I only had half for lunch and the other half for dinner.  A big improvement over the past when I would eat all of a large pizza in one sitting.

Still, most days I ate just a burger for lunch and maybe some meatloaf for dinner.  But even with the meatloaf I was having a slice of bread.  I just made sure I put plenty of butter on it.  And heaven help me the only vegetables I've eaten this week are the ones on the burgers I buy.  I'm so bad.  Not sure when I'll change that.

I've also had some watermelon this week too and I've stopped at Taco Bell a few times and had a couple of tacos or maybe a steak quesadilla with sour cream.  So as you can see I still eat a lot of fast food, but now I try to stay away for the drinks and shakes and the fries etc.  Without all those extra carbs I don't stay hungry so I eat a lot less.  And while I didn't manage a whole day of fasting again this week, the hunger is still under control.

Oops.  I just remembered the toaster strudels I ate.  Sheesh!  How is it that I manage to lose weight when I still eat so much junk?  Well, I know that I'm eating far less junk than I used to so that helps, but I also think the intermittent fasting has a whole lot to do with it.  The key has got to be in keeping those insulin levels down so I can stay in fat burning mode.  I'll just keep working on improving my diet but not beating myself up for when I don't eat so healthy.  For me it's a good balance right now.  I don't feel like I'm 'dieting' at all or even putting any effort into it and yet the weight keeps burning off.  I'm so happy!!!!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Day 133 251.4 lbs

(I have got to figure out a better way to title these posts other than day so and so.  Sigh.  I have no imagination.)

SOOO, I finally hit the 40 lb goal.  Only about 3 weeks later than I wanted, but it actually doesn't sound too bad when I put it that way.  The problem was the not knowing if I was just on a plateau or if I'd stopped losing weight entirely.

But that was almost a whole 2 lbs this week even though I was really bad on Sunday and ate a whole bag of Doritos and a whole container of Tostitos cheese dip.  However, Monday I pulled it together and cooked up a bunch of bacon, stopped eating all the extra carbs and got back into the not so hungry mode.  I didn't manage a whole day of not eating, but that's ok.  Just getting this experience of falling of the wagon so to speak, and then getting back on so easily has given me a lot of confidence and a renewed motivation.  (The wagon in this case is not just eating low carb, but getting the hunger back under control.)

Actually, yesterday I did try to do a whole day fast, but got hungry so ate a couple of pieces of bacon in the morning and then got hungry again when I was at the clinic where there isn't much to eat so I had a small handful of almonds and then later a package of crackers and peanut butter.  Then, by 5 PM I was hungry again, but was going to my nephew's high school graduation (and was still trying not to eat much anyway) so decided to stop at Sonic and get some mozzarella sticks.  (Ya know it would be a lot better if I ate some vegetables once in a while.)  Then after the ceremony I had a (small) piece of graduation cake, but that was kind of cool because while it tasted really good, I was actually satisfied with just a small piece which NEVER happened in my former (pre-low carb) life.

So, as you can see, the way I eat is nowhere close to perfect, but the key to dropping the weight, at least for me, seems to be keeping my carbs low enough to keep the hunger under control so that I can do the intermittent fasting which keeps my over all calorie intake for the week less than what I take in.  And I feel it is crucial that I do it low carb and not just low calorie because the low carb keeps the insulin levels low and allows my body to go into fat burning mode.

So all in all it's been a good week and my knee keeps improving, but not to the point where I can exercise yet.  I've got the name of a good physical therapist that I hope to get an appointment with in the next couple of weeks in order to get some advice on how to work with this knee to get it healed and keep it that way.

In the meantime I'm just focusing on the Intu-Flow for now.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Day 126 253.2 lbs

Ok, down 1 1/2 pounds this week.  I'll take it!!!  It's been a rough month weight, food and knee-wise, but hopefully this finally breaks the plateau and I'm on the way down again.

I am going to have to count on the 80/20 rule though (diet counting for 80% of the weight loss and exercise 20%) as I am still resting my knee and so not exercising.  I am trying to get back on a daily routine with Intu-Flow and I have arranged to meet next week with a professional bike rider who will critique my position on my bike and give me advice on how to fix it if I'm not positioned right.

I also figured out this week that I am doing a lot of damage to my knee just getting out of the car.  When I started back to hospice last Friday, my knee was feeling pretty good, but by Saturday afternoon after getting in and out of the car about a billion times to make visits, it was killing me.  Of course then I started paying attention to what I was doing when I got out of the car and (of course) it wasn't good.  Instead of turning in the seat and standing up out of the car in a straight position.  I place my left leg on the ground and then use my right leg to push against the floor mat and push me out of the car.  So my right leg/knee is bent and twisted.  Not good. 

I've worked the rest of the week to stop that habit and make myself turn and place both feet on the ground before trying to stand up.  It's been a battle to remember to do that, but I'm getting there.  I now wonder if doing that has been the biggest cause of my knee problem.  It would be nice if it was because now that I'm aware of it I'm going to stop it and if that knee will heal now I'll be over the moon.  I do plan to do another radio frequency treatment on it today so that should help it feel better this weekend. 

And so another piece of the puzzle is found.

Still did not manage a one day fast this week, but I do feel like I'm readjusted to the low carb again and I can hopefully pull one off this week.  I think if I can I will be back to 2 to 2 1/2 pounds per week even if I can't do any cardio.

I have not got on the Whole Body Vibration (WBV) machine this week at all due to rupturing one (and I suspect two) functional ovarian cysts this weekend.  I have gotten these about once a year for the last several years now so I'm all too familiar with the pain and my intuition felt that the vibration wouldn't be a good thing until I healed, but I will try it today and see how it feels.  I do really want to try to do it every day that I can.

Still eating on that meatloaf I made last week.  Yummm.  It makes a good breakfast!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Day 119 254.8 lbs

Well shoot.  Another week at 254 lbs.  That's a little disappointing as I did get back on track this week with the eating and I thought I'd  at least get to 253 (and I was hoping for 252).  However, the two things I could not do this week that I was doing in the past is I could not ride my bike (due to my knee, but it is getting better - more about that below) and I never did manage an all day fast.  I thought about (and tried a couple of times) not eating for a day, but instead listened to my body when it told me I needed to eat.  And since it took me a few weeks early on to manage an all day fast I suppose it isn't unreasonable that my body may need a couple of weeks of eating low carb again before its able to try again.  And, admittedly, I haven't been able to stick to an 8 hour eating window every day this week.  (Again, because I was listening to what my body needed.)  So hopefully, now that I've got the hunger back under control (and I'm not really sure how I did it exactly, just started eating more fat and protein and less carbs and turned it around in a day) this next week will do better.  I'm just really wanting to lose down to 252 by Monday which is the last day of May so that I will have lost 40 lbs in 4 months.  Sigh.

But other than the scale not showing any weight loss I continue to feel like my body is changing.  The new size 20 jeans that I bought now fit comfortably so I finally moved the size 22 jeans out of the closet.  (I started this at size 24 so that's 2 pant sizes down.  Woo hoo!)  I also bought smaller underwear.  All my old tops fit looser - not so snug at the chest anymore and I'm still getting compliments on how much smaller I look - even from people who see me frequently.  All this even though I techniquely haven't lost any weight in 3 weeks.  I don't really understand how that can be (and yes, I do know that as body composition changes your weight on the scale won't necessarily change) because the one measurement that I did take (around my stomach) hasn't changed in a couple of months.  I started out at 50 inches and it's still at 46 inches.  But that is one of the mysteries of weight loss so I'm just going to go with it and not sweat the lack of progress on the scale ... just yet.

I have done two treatments on my knee with the radio frequency machine at the clinic and the overnight improvement was truely unbelievable.  The feeling of tightness and swelling decreased tremendously and I was able to bend my knee farther - or at least that's how it felt.  And it really felt a lot stronger - almost to the point where I wanted to run up the stairs.  And the discomfort at the front of the knee really dropped as well.  It isn't 100% but it feels very close to the same as my left knee which causes me no problems at all.  I now have visions of being able to get back on the bike before the end of June.  Hopefully I can force myself to ease back into it slowly.

I also started using the new whole body vibration (WBV) machine we got at the clinic to quick start my strength training so I can get my legs and core stronger which will help with the bike riding (among other things).  I can feel my abdominal muscles as I lay here typing this (as well as my hamstrings and quads now that I'm paying attention).  And I can already tell that I'm using those muscles more now to get me up stairs or to sit down in a chair and get up from one.  All these changes make me happy and make me feel like I'm making progress so I will continue to do the WBV as many days a week as I can manage as it will also bring increased circulation to my knee and help it to heal that much faster.  I'm anxious to get it healed so I can finally start sprinting as that can increase fat burning up to 9 times so I'm counting on that to get my weight loss back closer to the 2 1/2 pounds a week.  All I can do is try and then wait and see.

I just reread the post prior to this one and realized I needed to say something about the ketosis.  I did buy the Ketostix and test my urine and it was always negative for ketones, so my theory that it was ketosis that had controlled my hunger didn't pan out because I do have my hunger back under control again despite not showing the ketones.  So what could account for the decreased hunger?  My next best guess is that my eating fewer carbs has restabilized my blood sugar so that it appears, for me at least, that blood sugar drops cause my hunger more than anything else.  It's amazing to me really.  That that had that much affect on me all these years.  If I'd only eaten more fat all these years I would have gotten the weight under control long ago.  (What does fat have to do with it you ask?  Because protein ratios really don't change much in actual practice.  It usually stays about 30% of calories, so that only leaves carbs and fat to play around with.  If you decrease your carb percentage, your fat percentage should naturally increase (unless everyone and their brother is shouting that fat is bad so you keep it low and end up mostly eating carbs and protein both of which stimulate insulin release and your back on the blood sugar roller coaster - makes me mad just thinking about it).

One last note, I didn't make meatloaf hamburgers as I didn't have the time so I just made the regular meatloaf which turned out pretty good.  Maybe a little too salty and a little too much tomato paste/ketchup, but man I love the stuff.  Yummm.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Day 112 254.4 lbs

Well this week was a wash.  I essentially weigh the same as last week.  However, considering what I've been eating lately I'm amazed I didn't gain anything.

Still, I figured out a lot of things this week so really these last 3 weeks that I've been struggling have taught me a great deal and now I'm glad I went through that process.

First, and most important, I learned how crucial ketosis was for me in the beginning.  It was in ketosis that I could sail through the day without hunger and it was my choice whether I ate or not.  I've tried to get that back and hadn't been successful until I realized (admitted) that I was eating too many carbs to be in ketosis.

And I realized that using the glutamine works best while you are in ketosis.  I think it essentially eliminates the hardest aspect of getting to ketosis and that's the weakness/irritability that is so common when trying to get your body to adapt to fat burning.  I think this is a major discovery and I should be awarded a Nobel Prize.

I bought some Keto-stix yesterday just so I could check the ketones in my urine out of curiosity.  So far no keto spilling but I wonder if maybe one wouldn't spill ketones if they were all getting used for fuel?  I'll have to research that.

I also ran across some interesting info on cyclical keto diets.  Basically this means going in and out of ketosis on some sort of regular basis in order to get a break and have some carbs to restock the liver and muscles and satisfy some cravings.  I believe I naturally did this when I varied my calorie intake through out the week - some days no calories, some days too many calories, and the rest somewhere in between.  It's my goal to get back there again as well as stick better to the 8 hour eating window.  I liked how I felt when I was doing that and it wasn't so strict.  I could get in the comfort foods I was craving and yet still reap the benefits of a low carb diet.

Ha! I also ran across the neat idea of meatloaf burgers.  I like this idea a lot as I think I will be much more inclined to eat this kind of burger with a fork without feeling deprived the way I do when I try it with a regular hamburger.  Plus it should keep the burgers moist and not turn them into such hard hocky pucks which puts me off of eating leftover hamburgers.  Can't wait to try it this weekend.  Should also give me a chance to use the local breakfast sausage that I bought a while back and haven't used yet.

The one sad thing I have had to come to terms with this week is that I'm going to have to stop bike riding for a while if I want my knee to heal.  From the little research I have done, I realize that I still have posture isssues that are contributing to the pain/inflammation in that knee as well as just weak muscles over all.  I need to do some strength training and rest the knee for a bit.  Sad, sad, very sad. 

Thank god I have the MaxGXL though.  Thanks to it I am no longer limping and when I doubled the dose one day just to see how it would affect my knee I found it made it feel a lot better.  My knee had been feeling quite tight and swollen, but the Max took most of that away.  Yay Max!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Day 105 254.2 lbs

Down almost a full pound this week which is amazing considering this has been my worst week eating-wise since I started.  In fact I'm not sure why my weight didn't go up this week.  The fact that it didn't is a testament to the power of this way of eating.

I really can't remember back to what I ate last Friday and Saturday, but Sunday was Mother's Day and I went to the Waffle House and bought the works so I could serve my mom breakfast in bed.  I got waffles and biscuits and gravy and hash browns and bacon and sausage and scrambled eggs.  Not that we ate it all that morning, but the leftovers were carbs and they set me up for hunger that I never really got back undercontrol until yesterday.  Wednesday was really bad as I gave in and bought some candy, including a bag of Blow Pops and then proceeded to eat all of it before the day was over.  (Shades of my old behavior creeping back in.  See?  I told you I was the world's worst carbaholic.)

But that was a bit too much and I was totally put off by sugar after that.  Didn't eat much yesterday as I just wasn't that hungry.  Still, I have to wonder how I managed to drop any weight after all that.  Plus I only exercised once this week.  It's been a busy week, plus my knee was hurting more from what I'm sure was transfat in the baked goods I ate this week.

Still, live and learn and I think what makes this diet (way of eating) so different that any other I have tried is how easy it is to get back to it after you have messed up.  I wish I could eat some bacon and eggs today, but my stupid body wants to be allergic to eggs so I'll just have to settle for the bacon.  So for lunch I'm going to fry up some bacon and then cook some chicken in the grease and have that on some lettuce along with tomatoes, avocado and strawberries.  Yummm.  Gotta love this diet.

So while I was kind of hoping to be down 50 lbs by my birthday in a week and a half, I knew that would be pushing it.  Now I'm just going to be happy if I hit 40 lbs which I'm not really worried about doing.  I may even make it to 42 or 43lbs.  We'll see!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Day 98 255 lbs

255 lbs.  Down 37 lbs since the beginning.  Feels like a milestone to me, which is weird because you would think a more even number like 250 would be a more likely candidate.  But getting into the 250s seemed like such an impossible task just 3 'short' months ago that to be solidly into the 250s, right at the midpoint, seems amazing to me.  I want to savor this victory, but it is hard to really feel it.  Intellectually I know what I've accomplished, but, its hard to describe, I somehow can't wrap my mind around it.

I didn't have any time to exercise this week.  The hospice calls were relentless this week and I didn't get much sleep and then had things to do during the day.  Still I dropped another pound and a half and it probably was more, but I ate some carbs last night, nothing crazy, but enough that I'm sure I'm holding onto some water this morning.  I really want to work more on getting more fresh food into me.  I depend heavily on fast food hamburgers for a lot of my meals.  I'm just not sure how to work it all in.  There is so much more I want to do exercise-wise as well.  I want to sprint, and do more of Scott Sonan's stuff.  I want to do the Samba DVD that I have.  I want to go for more walks.

Speaking of walks!  This is the week that a miracle occurred.  My knee/right leg has finally stopped hurting!  After 2 weeks on the MaxGXL, the inflammation in my body decreased enough that the pain in my knee, lower back and hip pretty much stopped.  I really didn't think that those remaining pains were all caused by inflammation but apparently they are.  The chiropractic and rolfing made huge, major differences, but that deep ache that kept me limping seemed intractable even though I kept making small improvements with the body work.

I really was shocked by this.  I still can't quite get over that it doesn't hurt to walk anymore.  (Well, there are small twinges, but they are no big deal.)

Friday, April 30, 2010

Day 91 256.4 lbs

OMG!  Down 5.8 lbs this week!  That's a total of 35 1/2 pounds to date!

But actually I know that number is a little skewed because I didn't show any weight loss last week.  However, I did carb out the night before my weigh day last week so even though I probably lost a couple of pounds that week it didn't show.

Doesn't matter though because I am so thrilled with the results.  Everyone started commenting on my weight loss last week.  I'd wondered when that would start happening, but it was really good because it happened the week that the scale didn't go down.  So even though I didn't have the motivation from the scale, the motivation from everyone noticing was far better.

Plus the whole clothes thing is really cool.  I had to ditch 4 pairs of underwear that just hang on me now.  If I didn't still have my lower belly they would just drop to the floor.  Also I put on a blouse last night that used to be too tight and now it's almost too big.  How cool is that?

Now I am also doing the Lipo Ex treatments.  (Have I mentioned this yet?  I'll have to look back at the last couple of posts.)  Yesterday was my fourth treatment and I was able to go ride my bike for 2 hours almost immediately afterwards for the first time.  Hopefully I burned a lot of fat!  I rode for 24 miles and my knee didn't hurt which brings me to my next segment.

The MaxGXL that I've been taking for the last week and a half is what I give the credit to for this latest miracle.  Not that my chiro and rolfer (I wonder if there is another term I could use?) haven't been responsible for most of the improvement because they have.  How much they have helped me is more than I think I can ever repay, but they can't work with the inflammation in the same way the GXL can and I can really tell the difference.  My thumb joints, especially my left thumb which has more of the arthritis than the other, barely feels it at all now.  And all these improvements took such a major leap yesterday.  I mean when I woke up yesterday, I still did my usual limping as my right leg took back on my weight after being in bed all night.  But while I was riding my bike yesterday I realized that my knee wasn't started to hurt the longer I rode like it usually does.  And then later that evening, I realized I was walking normal - without pain!  Gosh that was such a shock!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Day 84 262.4 lbs

Yes, up a little from last week, but I think I actually lost a pound.  What happened was I had a breakdown yesterday because of not having any food in the house and ate a lot of salty carbs and ate late so I know I retained a lot of water. 

But to tell the truth, I ate a lot of carbs this week, relatively speaking.  I believe what happened, besides not having food or time to prepare food, is that for various reasons, I couldn't exercise most of this week, but for a couple of weeks before that I exercised a lot and eating extra carbs didn't bother me. 

But then this week, without the exercise, the extra carbs started setting up the carb cravings.  Anyway, I'm learning.  I know I need to pay more attention to the food.  However, food has always been a problem for me so that will probably always be a work in progress for me.

On the physical side this week, I had a lot of success.  First my chiropractor tried some new things with me and really was able to help most of the pain in my lower back/sacrum.  Then my rolfer worked that entire hip, leg and pelvis and made HUGE progress on the knee pain and hip and groin tendon tightness.  I can really see and feel a difference in my range of motion in the area when I do the Intu-Flow.  There is still work to do but I'm so excited about this progress as I was (once again) beginning to despair of things ever healing.  Now at least I know that they can ... and will.

I'm off hospice so will focus on the exercise more this week.  Still struggling with fitting everything in.  But I'm still making progress so will just keep on keeping on.

Also today I had the first person who isn't in my family notice that I'd lost weight.  Woo hoo!  That was motivating and helped me get back on track.  I think I need to get back to coconut milk shakes again.  I think all that fat was beneficial. 

Still lots of work to do and a long way to go.  Emotionally it was a real roller coaster for me this week.  Like I said I really fell into dispare about my lower right side ever healing this week.  But then I was on a big high after getting all the improvement from the rolfing.  I just have to continue rolling with the punches.  It's no fun to go through but I now know I will come out the other side.  Usually by the next day.

And another hugh deal is that my best friend has had great results using the glutamine trick to control alcohol cravings.  Don't feel like writing too much about it right now, but it means so much to her to be able to have a tool to use.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Day 77 261.2 lbs

Down almost 4 lbs this week.  I guess that makes up for just the one pound last week.  (But after thinking about it, I think last week I was holding on to a lot of water from eating restaurant food more than usual while Bev was here.)  That makes it official:  30 lbs lost!  I'm trying to celebrate that, but my mind wants to gloss over it and wish for the 50 lbs loss.  Sigh.  It can be a struggle to just appreciate the process.

It's been a busy week, but in contrast it's made it feel easy to lose the weight this week.  I feel like it's been no effort at all.  I'm still eating all the leftovers Bev made while she was here.  I don't know what I'm going to do when they run out.  I don't have time to cook!  Anyway, so the food part was easy.  And even though I logged a total of 90 miles on my bike this week that didn't feel like work.  That was just fun.

So weird.  I don't even recognize myself anymore.  Gone are the days of never even getting out of bed for the whole weekend except when absolutely necessary.  I hardly watch TV anymore.  It all changed so spontaneously without me forcing myself.  Kinda cool actually.  And I dare anyone to suggest that it all because I just finally 'decided' to get serious.  What I did do is figure out how to balance my body chemistry.  Once that happened, then the cells started getting what they needed to function properly, my energy level increased and the natural inclination to move and do finally had the energy it needed to remanifest.  I have always hated reading in various books that the reason I was overweight was because I ate for 'emotional' reasons or that I was just lazy.  I always knew that I overate because I was compelled to eat by obsessive thoughts of food and that I was lazy because I had no energy.  And now my experience since starting this program has proven that I was right. 

Now, in other news.....  My right knee is still bothering me.  Enough that I really can't go for a walk.  I don't know what's going on inside of the damn thing, but it better get with the program here one of these days.  At least it lets me ride my bike.  I'd go stark raving mad if I couldn't at least ride my bike.  I started taking a new supplement two days ago that was recommended by my rolfer, MaxGXL.  It's to increase glutathione levels in the body and since glutathione is supposedly the most potent anti-inflammatory we have, it will subsequently reduce inflammation in the body as well.  And since my bet is that a lot of what is going on in my knee is inflammation related then the MaxGXL should make it feel better.  It's too soon to tell yet of course, but one thing it seemed to help with immediately was the teeth clenching when I sleep.  I noticed that first night that my jaw muscles weren't spontaneously tightening like they usually do.  Could be a coincidence and I know I did clench my teeth some last night so I'll just have to watch and see.  But boy would it be great to get rid of that problem.  My fingers are crossed!  It's also supposed to help you sleep better which would be fantastic if that would happen.  I've really run out of ideas on how to help me stop waking up in the middle of the night and not be able to go back to sleep.  Well, other than quit my on call job which I can't do just yet.  So my fingers are crossed for that effect too.

Here's another cool thing.  Last blog I wrote about having some protection from sunburn now that I've changed the way I eat and I wondered what it was that could be giving that kind of protection.  Well, when I was researching the MaxGXL I heard in one of the audios I listened too that glutathione helps to protect against sunburn.  They also said that the better diet one eats, the more glutathione one makes.  So that makes perfect sense when compared to the reports from people newly gone Primal or Raw Foodist.  Either diet is an improvement on the SAD so would naturally raise glutathione levels and improve ones ability to resist sunburning.  And so my guess that it had something to do with inflammation was also right.

I haven't done any more sprinting this week.  I'm still having a hard time fitting everything in.  Will continue to work on that.  Likewise, I still haven't started doing the Prasara Yoga yet even though the DVDs did arrive.  And now I've loaned them to my chiropractor until my next visit which isn't for another week, but that's ok because I start back to hospice this week so probably won't have the time anyway.  Sigh.

I did go out and try to buy a pair of size 20 jeans, but they were still too small so had to settle for a another pair of size 22 jeans.  However, they are big and tend to slide down.  I guess I'm in that awkward in between jeans sizes phase.  I'm betting I'll be able to get into the 20's in another 10 lbs so that should be in about a month.  So much for the myth of dropping a size for every 10 lbs you lose.

And speaking of dropping sizes.  We got the new Lipo Ex machine at the clinic last week.  It uses radio frequency to heat up the fat cells and get the fat to leak out of the cell and into the space between the cells.  You then need to burn that fat, but at least you get to decide which part of the body the fat comes from.  I've had two treatments so far on my lower abs as that it my worst area at the moment.  (Not by much though.  My thighs are an extremely close second.)  And while it is cool that I can encourage my body to take the fat from the area I want it, mostly I care about what effect it might have on helping me avoid having loose hanging skin after I finish losing approximately 150 lbs.  Now maybe my skin might retract on its own as I am trying to give it all the nutrients it needs, but I'm all for hedging my bet with the Lipo Ex.  I have nothing to prove here.  I just want the results.

Until next time.......

Friday, April 9, 2010

Day 70 265 lbs

Down just a pound this week for a total weight loss of 27 lbs, but I'm not surprised.  With Bev here I ate more than I usually do, but I also exercised more than I ever have so between the two I'm ok with the one pound weight loss.  I like to think that I gained at least a pound of muscle this week.  Is that possible?  I don't know.  I tried to Google an answer, but didn't find one for my situation.  One would think that if it is possible to gain a pound of muscle in a week it would be someone like me who hadn't exercised in years.

I have continued to gain strength, flexibility and balance in what seems to me like leaps and bounds.  For example, in less than a week, I went from riding my bike 8 miles using mostly the 4th, 5th, and 6th gears then stopping to rest for at least 30 minutes before doing another 8 miles to going the whole 16 miles without stopping and in 7th gear the whole way with almost no burning sensation in my legs.  And I could have done more, a lot more, but the rain moved in and forced me to stop.  So again, I only got in 2 days of biking this week, but they were really good days.

And the good news continues.  My right side is almost totally back to normal now.  The rolfing made a huge difference in the right hip area and gradually my whole right side has continued to improve throughout the week.  I saw both my chiropractor and rolfer again 2 days ago.  They both beat me up pretty good and I'm still sore, but I feel almost no discomfort in that right side now.  My knee has just a hint of weakness most of the time but I feel even that will have completely resolved in the next week or two.  And I've only had time to take one walk but I was able to do it with very little discomfort in my right side and it didn't last long once the
walk was over.  And because I can now exercise whenever I want without pain, I'm now finally relaxing and just enjoying the process.  Yeah I would like to have already lost a hundred pounds but my life has changed so much, become so much more interesting and varied that I really can't complain.

I've continued to progress with the Intu-Flow.  My balance and strength are so much better now.  When I do the leg range of motion I can lift my legs up higher and hold them up for longer without falling over.  I'm getting close to the point where I can advance to the next level.  Even my arm strength has improved to the point that getting my bike on and off the bike rack is a lot easier.  I can no lift the bike like it weighs nothing.  How cool is that?  I also ordered Scott's Prasara Yoga DVD and plan to start that sometime this week hopefully.  It hasn't arrived yet though.

I also was able to successfully do a couple of sprints on the rebounder this week without hurting anything.  This is most exciting because it means I can now do sprints here at home so, hopefully, will be able to get them in 3 times a week now.  I'm still trying to fit all this into my schedule.  I admit it's all a little difficult to keep up with what with trying to do the food, weekly chiro and rolfing appointments, bike riding, walking, Intu-Flow, body weight exercises and sprinting.  But it's ok.  It's all a work in progress and I really don't feel any pressure to be perfect.  It's all fun right now and I plan to keep it that way.

As for the food, Bev has given me a few new ideas on that.  She made an Italian minestrone type soup only without the beans and pasta that was quite good and worth making again.  She also made both and egg and tuna salad both of which have possibilities but need to be tweaked a little to add some more flavor.  And I did eat a little of the egg salad to test how the rash on my legs would react.  As far as I could tell it didn't react at all.  The rash is completely healed now except for some faint discoloration in the areas where the rash used to be.  It isn't fooling me though.  I know it is hiding out just below the surface ready to reemerge at a moment's notice.  It's going to take a while to really heal it all the way but I don't care at this point.  After more than a year just to have normal looking legs again and to not have to use gallons of hydrocortisone cream is amazing.

Hmmm, what else? 

Well, the sunburn thing is still interesting.  The next time I went out on my bike, I wore a tank top like shirt so exposed more of my upper arm and shoulder than I normaly do and they did turn pink, but not as pink as they would have usually for the amount of time I was in the sun and it didn't hurt either.  Which was kind of weird and still made me feel like I had alien skin.  I did try googling why again and again didn't come up with any definitive answers, but did run across and interesting blog entry from a raw foodist who noted the same effect after switching to a raw food diet.  He attributed the protection from sunburn to cutting out meat and cooked food, which of course it couldn't be because I too have the protection and eat both meat and cooked foods daily.  I'm left thinking that it probably has something to do with the carbohydrates.  Something to do with less inflammation or sugar carmelizing.

I also think I'm going to have to go out and buy a pair of size 20 jeans this week.  The old pair of 22s that I've been wearing are kind of baggy and have the holes in them on the inside of the thighs that keep getting bigger.  I'm both excited and nervous about trying to go down another pant size.  I'll be dissapointed if 20 doesn't fit, but oh well, I'll get over it and just try again in another week.

I'm sure there is more I could tell but just can't think of at the moment.  All in all another great week.  I love all this momentum especially after how slow things seemed to go back at the start of this.  Yay me!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Day 64 Miracles!

So many exciting things happening, I just had to post them right away!

First off, I did the rolfing session 2 days ago that addressed my right hip and leg problem.  Yesterday I noticed that it no longer hurt to walk!  My knee no longer felt weak or hurt when walking.  My hip didn't hurt.  My lower back didn't hurt.  I was walking around with my jaw dropped to the floor.  It was absolutely unbelieveable to me.  So while rolfing is not for the meek or shy, it offers so much in it's ability to 'unfreeze' the damages we sustain over our lifetimes.  I suspected that when I herniated a disc three years that all the intense pain caused muscle spasms in my hip and lower back area and that those areas might have knotted up just like the knots in my back that my massage therapist has worked out.  And now I know that the fascia was also effected.  Man I still can't believe it.  Thank god I tried the rolfing!

The next miraculous thing I noticed was that I tanned without burning yesterday.  That has NEVER happened in my entire life.  Now I had read bits on Mark's Daily Apple about others who had gone Primal and had noticed or thought they noticed this happening, but I never considered it would happen to me.  I want to know what could cause that change?  That ability to go out in the sun and not burn even when you are a pale pasty white from being inside all fall and winter long?  Could it be that not having the sugar in the diet creates that effect?  One poster mentioned that sunburn is an inflammation and eating Primal definately decreases inflammation.  But to have my body react so totally differently to the sun that it ever has before in my entire life after just 2 months on Primal?  I NEED an answer.  Not knowing why this happened is making me crazy! (In a good way though.)

The other thing I noticed is how, after doing the Intu-Flow for a couple of weeks now, that I no longer have tightness in the front of my shoulder.  I would always stretch my arm out at night when I went to bed and just let it hang to try to ease some of that tightness.  Last night I did it just out of habit and I was shocked when there was no tightness there at all!  OMG!  What is happening to me?  It is all so fantastic.  I just want to jump up and down with joy but I still weigh too much to do that yet.  Wow.  Awesome.  Thank god for Mark Sisson and his website!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Day 63 266 lbs

Down a total of 26 lbs now.  That's almost unbelievable to me.  I'm starting to love Friday's since I'm losing weight consistently now.  How fun is that?

I haven't been consistently upbeat this week though.  Last Friday I was pretty down.  I had taken a walk on Thursday and hurt so much afterwards.  It was very frustrating and I didn't know if I was ever going to get to the point where I could exercise.  I had the energy, but my body couldn't keep up with me.  But I iced by right lower back and hip Friday night and then decided to try to ride my bike on Saturday.  Well, that turned things around because not only could I ride, it actually made my right side feel better.  So then it was like, ok, maybe I can't walk for 40 minutes, but I can ride my bike for an hour and a half.

On Monday, my friend Beverly, flew in and she immediately got on board with this way of eating and the Intu-Flow.  But while I was hoping we would make a new recipe everyday, in reality, there has only been one day that we have had the time.  We made a chicken and shrimp, gumbo type soup from MarksDailyApple.com.  At first it was bland, but Bev came up with the idea of adding chicken stock to boost the flavor and another can of Fire Roasted tomatoes and suddenly it was quite good.  Especially after it sat for a few hours.  I didn't think I would want to make it again, but after the changes I just might.

And my eating this week hasn't been perfect, but maybe it's been around the 80%.  (My version of 80% anyway.  I still depend a lot on fast food hamburgers on many days for a meal.)  Last Friday I got a Domino's Pizza as I hadn't had any pizza in 2 months.  I have to say it was good and by the end of the day I had eaten 5 slices and finished the other 3 the next day.  Then day before yesterday Bev and I ate lunch at a mexican restaurant and we at the basket of chips and our main dishes came wrapped in flour tortillas.  But as you can see, neither threw me off altogether.  I actually did another 24 + hour fast after the mexican meal as I just wasn't hungry.  I love that I have the choice of whether I eat or not now.  And I love how the fasting makes me feel.  I feel more energy and get a sort of mood boost.  But I intend to keep the fasts reasonable.  No week long fasts for me.  I'm just coming off about a 36 hour fast this morning and that's about long enough for me.  I just find it really cool that I can go that long without eating and be perfectly fine with it.  I even sat at a fast food place with Bev yesterday while she had a chicken salad and it didn't bother me a bit.  I didn't feel the need to get something for myself.  Freedom!!!

I'm really starting to see and feel the changes in my body now.  I've made such gains from doing Intu-Flow.  I feel so light and flexible.  It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I still weigh over 250 lbs.  I feel like I'm moving like I weigh 150 lbs.  My balance is so much better and my legs are so much stronger.  Each day I'm able to lift my legs up a little higher, for a little longer, balance on one leg without falling over as much.  I can get up and down off the floor or table (rolfing or chiro table) more fluidly.  I can feel my abdominals are stronger.  And it's pretty cool watching my stomach changing.  Yes, it is still way big, but it is shrinking.  It isn't as smooth and round as it was before, but it also isn't starting to sag which is what I've been leary of.  My skin seems to be retracting as I lose the weight at this point.  I really hope it keeps it up.

I did the rolfing twice this week as I was anxious to get to the session that would work on my lower back and hips.  I just did the hip session yesterday, so it's too soon to tell what effect it had.  I'm feeling the soreness this morning though.  I don't think it was a miracle cure though.  I'm just going to have to accept that whatever is going on in that right side will take time to completely heal.  But I can't really complain because it has improved probably 90% in the last 2 months.  It's only frustrating because it's preventing me from walking which I can do more often than ride the bike - if I could walk that is.

I only found time to ride my bike twice this week.  I would have ridden every day if I could have.  I put my ear phone in, play Pandora on my iPhone and just ride around the soccer fields at the park.  Last Saturday I did 16 miles.  Tuesday I did 12.  I really feel like I burn a lot of fat when I'm out there and it isn't hard, just a lot of fun.  So now I think I'll be able to continue the 2 1/2 lb weekly weight loss for a bit longer now that I've added more exercise in.  I'm doing the Intu-Flow almost everyday and I've added in a very simple body weight routine.  And just so you know, even though it is an easy beginner routine, I can't hardly do any of it.  I'm sure it will be a month before I'm able to do the whole thing just one time through.  But it's a goal to shoot for.

I also haven't been able to start back on the sprints either.  The eliptical I use at my sister's is pretty far away and I haven't been able to find the time to get over there everyother day to use it.  I think I'm going to test out using my Rebounder again.  If I can do it on the Rebounder without it making my right side worse then that would really help.

I'm not sure if I mentioned yet that I helped another friend of mine get started on this way of eating and exercising 2 weeks ago and she's been doing great.  She had an easy transition and hasn't had to use the glutamine like I do.  It has helped to have another local person be as excited about this as I am.

Well, not sure if I left anything important out from this week, but if I did, I'll just edit the post.  I'm off now to savor the 3 1/2 lb weight loss from this week.  Yay me!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Day 56 269.6 lbs

Oh Happy Day!  I broke into the 260's today.  Now down a total of 22 1/2 lbs.  That puts me a week ahead of my goal as I was only hoping for being down 20lbs by the end of March.

It feels like it has been a long week.  Last weekend started out with being so busy that I hardly had any time to eat.  By Tuesday I was getting so weak and shaky I decided I just needed calories so stopped at Wendy's and got a chicken sandwich, fries and a small Frosty.  The Frosty was good, but the fries tasted weird.  I ate several more fast food meals after that, but managed to pull it back together yesterday.  I'm just so busy on my hospice weeks that there is no time to cook and so the food gets monotonous real fast.  I'm hoping to try some new recipes over the next couple of weeks as my best friend is coming to visit so I'm taking some time off and she is anxious to give the Primal Lifestyle a try.

Still making good progress physically.  My chiropractor continues to see me once a week and is doing traction on my neck and lower spine.  I am limp free most of the time and my shoulders are almost even now.  The only problem is my knee gets sore again after every adjustment and after every Rolf session so this week I've been sore for 4 out of the 7 days and have not exercised, other than doing a few sessions of the Intu-Flow, all week.  I'm hoping that will get better in the near future and won't keep me down for that long anymore.  I want to start back doing some sprints on the elliptical this week.  I'm anxious to get that 9 times more fat burning advantage!

So my focus over the next week is to try some more recipes and get some more variety.  Especially some vegetables.  And to start sprinting.  The 'lift heavy things' part is going to have to wait a little bit longer, but I plan to have all elements going by the end of April (when hopefully I'l be in the 150's woo hoo!).

Friday, March 19, 2010

Day 49 272.2 lbs

It's official!  Down 20 lbs!

Wow.  20 lbs in 7 weeks.  Whodathunk?  I'm actually trying to wrap my mind around it because it doesn't seem real to me.  I remember how scared I was to start eating this way.  (And thanks to this blog I can actually read what I thought.)  It felt like a leap of faith to start eating fat and I was scared what life would be like to live without all of my favorite junk food.  After all, I'd never been able to beat the extreme hunger and cravings before.

This week I did a 24 hour fast.  It wasn't planned, it was just that there wasn't anything in the house that was appealing and since I wasn't really hungry anyway I just didn't eat.  And just like I've read on other blogs, it was easy.  I really wasn't hungry.  Now I do find that when I first wake up is when I feel the worst so to speak.  Kind of weak and shakey.  Not every day though.  Not today.  I think it has to do with how many calories I manage to get in the day before.  Somedays it is hard to get in a lot of calories, but then I just use that to keep it mixed up.  Other days I try to eat a lot so that my body never knows how many calories it's going to get.

This week I discovered Scott Sonnon and his Circular Strength Training, specifially his Intu-Flow program.
It is the perfect program to help me rehab my knee and the rest of my body that has been so unused and misused all these years.  And thanks to the miracle worker that is my chiropractor, I also became able to go for walks again this week.  Such a simple thing to take for granted until you can't do it anymore without having your whole right side ache for the next 3 days.  And today I plan to ride my bike for the first time in more than 2 years.  (I got it tuned up this week.)

So really a tremendous amount of progress this week and I'm so glad I have this blog, because as I go through the week, one day at a time, progress seems so slow.  I've actually been kind of down this week which is stupid considering all the great progress I've made.  Little, but big things like finding one day that I was sitting crossed leg on my bed in my jeans!  7 weeks ago I couldn't sit cross legged period for more than a minute without having the circulation cut off to my legs.

And food continues to be a struggle.  I'm so limited now from the allergies.  I've had to give up chicken as well since I guess it is too closely related to the egg protein.  I've been using restaurant food to get me by - BBQ pork from Corky's, meatballs from Olive Garden, and taco salads from Casa Mexicana.  I tend to eat the shell though when I eat mexican, but then I just let that be my high calorie day.  Hasn't seemed to hurt since I'm down more than 3 lbs this week.

As for my thyroid program, I've built up to 75 mg of T3 as of today.  I'll start weaning back down tomorrow in preparation for the 2nd cycle as my body temp still likes to hover around 96 degrees a lot of the time.  I had a feeling it was going to take a lot of cycles to get the thing to move.  I also read in Mark Sisson's book, The Primal Blueprint, that while the liver is insulin resistant that it won't convert much T4 to T3 and the only way I know to reverse that is to exercise enough to deplete my glucose stores in the liver.  Thankfully, I'm on my way to starting to be able to do just that.

Will be interesting to see what I can accomplish in the next week.  It is a hospice week though which means I just never know how much time I'll have.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Day 42 275.8 lbs

8 AM

Yippee!  I was so relieved to see the weight this morning.  I was hoping for at least 277 lbs and I got more than a pound more than that.

I can see that that may be my pattern because I'm finding it difficult to get enough to eat during my hospice weeks.  So twice now I've seen big drops on those weeks and smaller drops on my week off when I have more time to eat.

Having said that, this week, because I would get so hungry sometimes, I went to McDonald's twice and got the Chicken Selects.  The first time I got a 5 piece and used 2 containers of Ranch dipping sauce.  The second time I only got the 3 piece, but I ordered a cherry pie as well, but they were on special for 2 for a dollar so I got that and, gulp, ate both of them.  Real hunger is hard to fight.  That plus monotony of diet.

I did go to Corky's BBQ this week and bought a pound of the pulled pork.  It's very tender, but very lean so I added butter to it and just a little sauce.  Boy was it good.  No, I didn't eat the whole pound in one sitting.  It gave me 3 meals.  Each time I added a little bit more butter even though I felt like I added too much the first time because I'm still getting used to the fact that it is OK to eat fat.  I still ended up feeling like there wasn't enough fat in it, but I bought another pound yesterday so I'll have more chances.

If I can find the time, I'm going to look at some crock pot recipes.  Some of the reading I've been doing suggests that that kind of cooking is closer to the way things used to be cooked.  Richard, over at FreeTheAnimal.com , posts a lot of his meals and he has some crock pot meals that have inspired me.  It's all a question of time and money.  I wish I could eat eggs again as they are cheap.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Day 39

5 PM

Yay.  My thyroid medicine finally arrived today.  That means tomorrow I can start working on getting my metabolism raised back up.   I sure hope it doesn't take a year and I sure hope I get some more energy soon.  The weather is gorgeous and I would like to be outside exercising in it.  If only my damn right leg would stop hurting!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Day 38

9 PM

Been very busy with hospice.  Didn't get much to eat these past 3 days.  I battled with my mind driving home this evening.  My mind wanted to stop and get some crappy fast food.  My other mind didn't.  I wasn't really hungry even though I probably had only had 300 calories for the day.  In the end I came home and made a coconut milk shake and had some sausage.

I was too busy to make dinner for the past 4 nights and the rash on my legs has been doing good, so I'm about to decide that the rash is an egg allergy.  Damn.  Bad news.  There goes an easy dinner for awhile.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Day 35 279.2 lbs

9 AM

I'm disappointed with my weight today.  I was hoping to have lost 2 lbs, not gone up .4 lbs.  But I guess I was half expecting it.  Not because of how I've eaten.  I've stayed primal for the most part except for the hamburger buns (which I'm now ready to give up). 

No, I figure the reason is I was down 4 lbs last week, which was artificially high I think, from being sick and not eating much.  Hopefully next week I'll be down to 277.

And I'm also hoping to start walking next week.  My knee continues to improve although I saw the chiropractor yesterday and he tugged on that leg again and now it's a little worse.  But today's Friday and since I start back on hospice today it will be Monday before I can go for a walk.  That gives it 3 days to heal up some more.  On the other hand, I also go back to the chiropractor on Monday....  So we'll see.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Day 34

Skipped a day blogging yesterday, but it is getting monotonous.  So I probably won't keep posting everyday.  I'm not sure I'm going to keep counting days either, but then I don't have any better ideas for titles at the moment.

Only things of note today is that I went back to lettuce leafs for hamburger buns.  I tried the rice bread but it was so dry.  I'd rather do the lettuce.

Then tonight, for dinner, I still did the eggs and bacon, but I added some picante sauce and half an avocado.  Thanks to Kurt over at PaNu for the idea.  I always used to eat eggs that way on a tortilla.  I just hadn't thought of doing it without the tortilla.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Day 32

8 PM

Woke up this morning feeling terrible.  I was so tired and shakey.  I don't know if the fact that I didn't eat enough calories yesterday had anything to do with it or not.  I didn't eat any eggs for dinner last night.  I just had some bacon and then I was still hungry later so had 3/4 of a Lara Bar, which I know is just candy basically, but I just couldn't eat anymore eggs.  They made me so nauseous the night before.

So I made a coconut milk shake early this morning about 7 AM and that helped a little.  I still fell back to sleep for a little after that.

Today I had my first Rolfing session.  I really think it's going to help.  Can't remember if I mention it before or not.  My sister told me about it and it sounded like it was exactly what I needed to help get my body back into alignment and to help the chiropractic adjustments hold better.  I'll go once a week for 10 weeks to get through the initial series.  Immediately after the first session I no longer felt like I wanted to list to the right anymore.  He also pointed out, just like the chiropractor did, that I walk with my feet pointed out - like a duck.  When I deliberately try to walk with my feet straight, it feels like I'm walking pigeon-toed.  I'm a mess.

My sister ordered my thyroid medication today.  It should be here in a couple of days.  My temp this afternoon was only 96.0.  No wonder I'm barely functioning!

Food for the rest of the day was two fast food hamburgers.  (And yes, I ate the buns.)  I'm just going to have to do what I have to do until the thyroid program starts working and I get some more energy.  The one good thing is that even though I've thought about going back to my old ways and just doing fast food until I have more energy, I can't bring myself to do it.  Hamburgers are one thing, but I just can't go back to the burger, fries and coke thing or tacos or pizza.  So if I have to live on fast food hamburgers and coconut milk shakes for a while, well, that's a lot better than it could be.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Day 31

4 PM

Not sure where to jump in explaining things.  No, I haven't fallen off the Primal wagon, but I have added another problem to my list of things to overcome.

This weekend I started looking around the blogs for info on hypothyroidism because I am so completely drained and can't recover from this cold.  Then I remembered a book my sister lent me months ago that I never read called 'Wilson's Temperature Syndrome'.

Long story short, I feel certain that my thyroid system is disfunctional.  My temp yesterday, 3 hours after waking, was 96.2.  No wonder I feel so crappy.  Luckily my sister is a doctor and has already treated one patient for this so can get me started soon.  I have no energy to blog any more today.  I have been eating my normal stuff.  If you want more info on this syndrome look here.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Day 30

9 PM

I feel terrible.  I just can't blog today.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Day 29

9 PM

Woke up this morning feeling terrible!  Complete fatigue.  Cough was worse again.

I managed to drag myself out of bed to go run some necessary errands, but I was so tired by the time I got back home I was starting to get worried about what was wrong.

It was the first sunny, warm day we've had in a looong time, so I decided to get some sun thinking maybe my Vit D was low despite taking 8000 IU a day.  Stayed out about 30 min and it did revive me a little, but it didn't last long.

I decided to stop reading the Paleo nutrition blogs and start reading about thyroid since it occured to me that maybe I was so tired because I had suddenly stopped taking nascent iodine a few days ago after reading that it could potentially cause harm to the thyroid gland on one of the websites.  In retrospect, stopping something like that cold turkey isn't the brightest of ideas.  And subsequently, the stuff I read today reconfirmed that it is a good idea to take iodine.  I haven't worked out all the details yet as there is so much to learn in this area, but I did go ahead a take a dose of the iodine about 4 PM just to get some in me rather than waiting to take it on an empty stomach in the morning like I usually do.

I also went ahead and ate some more chocolate in an effort to get the caffiene to stimulate me, which is what it did last night and why I didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning.  But I didn't care.  I just wanted some energy.

My eating was also messed up today.  I got another burger at about noon while I was out running errands.  On the plus side, I went to Whole Foods after that and found some rice bread that I'm going to try as a substitute hamburger bun.  (I just couldn't get into the lettuce leaf bun concept.)  I plan to keep a couple of slices with me when I'm out so I can switch them out for the wheat buns.  But I'm hoping to get better about getting burgers at home since I buy good quality burger from Whole Foods.

About 2 PM I was really craving baked potato with tons of butter and salt, so instead of the usual coconut milk shake, I heated up the last of the chicken breast, the leftover green beans, and a medium sized red potato.  It weighed out to 185 gms before baking.  It was only later, when I was eating it that it occured to me that it wasn't 185 gms of carbs since there is also water in the potato.  I found online that 150 gms of potato has about 25 gms of carbs in it.  So I figure I ate about 30 gms of carbs.  I now realize I've overestimated the number of carbs in potato that I've eaten before due to that same mistake.  Made me happy.  I didn't feel so guilty about eating that big of a potato.  LOVED all the butter!

By 6:30 PM I was a little hungry so made the rest of the precooked bacon and ate that, but then that just made me hungrier, so I made a coconut milk shake, but I think it had too many fruit carbs in it because I was hungry again in a couple of hours and ate a little more chocolate, which just made me hungrier so I finally made a cheese quesadilla with the last tortilla, goat cheese and jalapenos that I had.  I can tell it's bad to spike my insulin that late in the afternoon/evening as it set me up for the evening munchies.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Day 28 278.8 lbs

One month gone.  Can't believe it.  I remember how scared I was that first day.  I thought the transition was going to be so hard and it turned out to be very easy (thanks to the glutamine).  Too bad the planning, preparing of meals is still so difficult.  I think I won't be celebrating how easy that is until next year!

278.8 lbs.  Wow.  What a number.  I was so happy when I saw that on the scale this morning.  I was truely shocked because even though I had stepped on the scale a couple of times this week and I knew I was dropping (being sick was good for something) I really thought I would have gone back up considering the flour I've eaten in tortillas and hamburger buns this week.  (I know, calories still count and I haven't had a lot of them this week.)  That puts me at down 13 lbs for the month.  I can honestly say that in all these decades of dieting I have only lost 15 or 20 lbs once or twice.  That's how hard it's been for me to stay on a diet.  So this next month is the one that will let me know if I've found something I can stick with.

11 PM

Short summary:  Ate a Hardee's burger on the way into the clinic today about 11:30 AM.  I'm no longer able to finish eating the whole thing when I get these burgers.

About 3 PM (still at the clinic) ate a handful of roasted almonds.  They were old and tasted that way, but it was the only noncarb snack available.

On the way home stopped and got some precooked bacon at the store since it was going on 6 PM and I didn't want to wait to cook raw bacon.  Had 3 fried eggs with it.

But then I got hungry again about 8 PM, I guess because I hadn't had enough calories.  I had 1/3 of a serving of dark chocolate and made a coconut milk shake. 

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Day 27

3 PM

Well, didn't get my wish last night.  Went out again shortly after finishing my post.  And then, at the home, when I was sitting at the kitchen table charting in the computer, there was an open piece of tupperware with several ooey, gooey and iced brownies.

So many thoughts went through my mind about those brownies.  An urge to grab the container and eat them all as fast as possible and wonder that with all those people in the house that there could be any brownies left.  But the detached part of my brain realized that the craving was like a reflex.  There was no power in it. 

No power in it.  But how?  Why?  How could anything that I've done in the last month have changed 48 years of 'habit' so suddenly?  I know that hormonally I'm minimizing insulin so that I'm not getting the blood sugar swings that send my brain into alarm 'eat anything NOW FAST' mode, but still, you would think that a habit would have been formed just from sheer repetition of the behavior over the years.  But then, can 'habits' be changed so suddenly?  I don't have the answer.

On the drive home from that visit, it was after midnight and I was even hungrier than earlier.  I debated on the 40 minute drive back home about whether to stop for fast food somewhere.  Almost anything sounded good.  Pizza.  Milkshake.  Cherry turnover.  Yeah.  I was definately hungry.  That's the only time I've gotten real urges for that kind of food since I've started this.  But then I remembered.  If I don't permanently change the way I eat, I'm going to die.  Heart attack.  Cancer.  Stroke.  Diabetes.  Alzheimer's.  It was a real craving killing thought.  I went home and ate one of the breakfast sausage patties I made earlier in the day.

I woke up this morning completely wiped out.  Still made it to the chiropractor because if I ever want to be able to start to excerise again.  Thank god he is such a great chiropractor.  On the way home it was time to eat so I stopped at Burger King and got one of their thick burgers or whatever they call them.  I've decided I'm not going to sweat the small transgressions.  I'm so far away from being well organized at this.  Plus I just don't have the cooking and planning meal skills to start with.  I have to learn all that as well.  Nothing like starting from ground zero.

Now I'm getting hungry again so I think I'll go eat some sausage and make a coconut shake.  One last night on call and then I'll have some time to try some new recipes.

8:30 PM

Made that shake earlier.  Was hungry so used a whole can of coconut milk and some frozen peaches.

Felt weird for a few hours. (No, I don't think the shake had anything to do with it.)  But my troublesome, right side felt jittery, jumpy.  The only other time I can remember feeling that was two years ago when I herniated a disc and went on narcotics for 10 days.  The day my chiropractor (not the same one) finally figured out how to help me I stopped the meds cold turkey and had a helluva night.  No sleep.  In and out of cold sweats and that weird jumpy, jitteryness.  Now why it came back today I have no idea and it has nothing to do with this blog, but it was so weird I just had to mention it.

About 7 PM I got hungry again, but really didn't have much to eat.  Can't cook because I'm on call.  So I hit upon the brilliant idea of eating one of the Lara Bars I have.  Boy was it good.  But then about 30 minutes later I realized that really, all I'd eaten was a paleo candy bar.  It was amazing how quickly I felt like crap.  I was kind of in awe of my pancrease though and how fast it must have pumped out that insulin to crash my blood sugar that fast.

So I made another cheese quesadilla - lots of fat to buffer the sugar - and felt better.  Since then I've been on the paleo blogs catching up on posts.  I've spent a lot of time reading both the pro and con sides of paleo/primal eating because it is the quickest way to find out the difficulties that might lie ahead, but also because I have read too many stories on the internet over the years of people losing weight on a variety of different diets.  Why?

Maybe the main reason is that there are different oxidizer types genetically - some people naturally digest their food faster than others.  I know for a fact that I'm a fast oxidizer and I bet most successful primal/paleo types are too.  If you digest your food fast, you'll do better on slower digesting foods - protein and fat.

And yet I gave birth to a slow oxidizer.  It was perplexing to me through the years as she grew up how she slowly rejected the foods I fed her when she was growing up.  But then when I joined Jillian Michaels site late last year and took her quiz on oxidizing types, it all made sense.

Then I read a post tonight on Richard Nikoley's site, Free The Animal.  In it, he was responding to some legitimate criticism and ended up talking about the benefits of Real Food.  And I thought he hit the nail on the head.

Humans are omnivores.  We can damn near eat just about anything and survive, just as long as it is a food that isn't too tampered with. (Example, humans do well on milk if it is fermented first the way it used to be done before refrigeration.)  So, because I don't want to become a low carb zealot, mostly because I want to be successful myself but also because I would like to make recommendations to the clinic clients someday (sheesh, how many times can I use 'because' in one sentence?) I'm almost of the mind to change my own label from Primal to Real Food.  Only almost though.  I do think because of my oxidative type I am best suited to a high fat, adequate protein, low carb diet but I couldn't recommend that to my daughter.  She is better suited more towards the vegetarian end of the scale (as long as she doesn't go completely vegan - which she won't).

So I am ready to get over this damn cold and make some new Real Food recipes and get out of this food rut I'm in!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Day 26

1 PM

On the mend, but weak today.  Still going back to work though.  Hopefully it won't be too busy and I can get some sleep tonight.

I felt very depleted this morning.  Too many days without enough calories.  So at 6:30 this morning I heated up some leftover chicken breast from last week, baked a small red potato in the microwave and added some green beans.  I just felt the need for a full meal and that's what I had on hand.  The potato only had 25 grams of carbs in it and I used plenty of butter.  All I want to do today is eat some (good) calories.

At noon I made my usual coconut milk shake only this time I hit upon the brilliant idea of eating a piece of mom's leftover porkloin with it for protein instead of adding some type of protein powder.  (Sometimes I just miss the obvious.)  No need to worry about allergies and it's a lot cheaper than buying the powders.

Now I just wish I could find an allergy website as good as GutSense.org.

10 PM

A little tough this evening.  Had to eat dinner early - 3:30 PM - since I never know what time I'll have to go out when I go on call.  But then, of course I was hungry later and maybe I shouldn't be trying to go back to intermittent fasting already, but I really like how I feel when I'm doing it.

And then I was coughing so much and so hard that I had a couple of throat losenges because I didn't have any cough drops, but that was the closest thing to candy I've had in a month and it stirred some cravings.

Anyway, hope I'm done with visits for the night.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Day 25

Another day of being sick.  I'm sick of being sick.  My head hurts.  My eyes hurt.  Oh well, enough whining.

The one good thing to come out of this is the effect it has had on the rash on my legs.  After 2 days of not eating very much, the rash is 80 - 90% healed.  I can't friggin believe it.  After over a year of this constant, aggravating, incurable rash that has caused me to go through one billion tubes of hydrocortisone cream, not to mention one billion other natural remedies I tried in an effort to cure it, has practically disappeared just because I stopped eating.  Arrrrrrgh!

But at least now I know 100 percent what is causing it.  I know it isn't gone for good because I am eating again and I have the terrible suspision that eating eggs is contributing to it and I don't know how I'm going to get by if I have to give up eggs for a while.

11PM

I've been sick for too many days and am running out of food.  Woke up hungry today so made 3 fried eggs with the last 2 pieces of sausage I made last week.  Round about 1 PM ate a piece of pork loin my mom made.  Mmmmm.  It was good because I didn't have to cook it.  Had a coconut milk shake around 4 PM then was hungry at 8 PM so made another quesadilla like yesterday.  It's tough to stay strictly primal when it's been 4 days now since I've been able to cook anything.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Day 24

2 PM

Called in sick today, because god knows I am sick.  I would like to cut this itching nose off of my face.

However.... I have not taken any medicine and I'm very proud of this.  Nothing extra that my liver will just have to detoxify.  And I can't tell any difference.  I feel no better or worse than when I do take medicine.

Another thing.  For the first time in my life I can be sick and not have to eat.  It feels so incredibly good just to give everything a rest.  I've always wanted to be able to do this, but in the past hunger always drove me to eat even though I knew what my body really needed was a break from digesting in order to concentrate on healing.  Now, thanks to going Primal, I can do that.

I do wonder though if part of the reason I got sick was because I stopped taking fish oil a couple of weeks ago in case it might be causing the rash on my legs.  It didn't work, but I didn't add it back in as I was still taking things out.  However, now I have found the site Gut Sense and have read enough about it today that I feel confident that by following this doctor's program I will solve my eczema/rash problem as well as others.

I especially like that he mentions how people who start a low carb/low fiber diet often can't stick with it due to constipation and other problems that occur.  And the fact that I have continued to have constipation since I started eating primal has surprised me especially considering all the fat I've been eating.  I thought the fat would fix it.  Now I know why it hasn't.  I also appreciate all the information he gives on why fiber is not good for us. 

And another piece of the puzzle clicks into place ......

Later that night .....

About 5 PM I drank a shake of coconut milk blended with frozen strawberries, but I think it was too much all at once and spiked my insulin because I was craving carbs a few hours later.  I did cave and make a cheese quesadilla with a low carb tortilla, cheddar cheese and jalapeno peppers.  Not too awfully bad though and the jalapenos sure helped to open up my sinuses. :-)

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Day 23

Another short post.  Getting sicker.  I stopped and got a Wendy's Baconater on the way home from a visit.  Just didn't have the energy for anything else.  Later on I made a shake with coconut milk, vanilla, and frozen strawberries.  It was good.  Damn cold.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Day 22

Just a short post as it is late.  I woke up with a chest cold this morning.  Also working hospice so eating was erractic as well as I just wasn't that hungry.  I finally fixed 3 scrambled eggs and some bacon about 1:30 PM then didn't get a chance to eat again until 9:30 PM when I made a shake out of 1/2 can of coconut milk, frozen sweet cherries and a little vanilla flavoring.  It was good.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Day 21 283 lbs

Well, very happy to see the scale drop another 2 lbs. I think the 17 hours or so of fasting a day that I've been doing are making a big difference. There really isn't much hunger or side effects such as weakness or dizziness. If I've had any, it's been fleeting and pass before I get around to taking any glutamine under the tongue. I love thinking that my body is burning stored fat for all those hours and really, it doesn't seem like I'm fasting at all since there is very little hunger during those 'munching' hours after dinner and bed and then in the morning, it's easy to stay busy until noon - something I did often anyway.

I tried something different with the protein shake today. I eliminated any protein powder (so I guess I can't really call it a protein shake anymore) and just used a whole can of coconut milk, some frozen peaches and a few ice cubes. It was ok, but came out kind of watery. Too many ice cubes and I think the peaches are pretty tasteless. I sure wish I had some more of those local, organic ones.

Anyway, it was definately fixable, but the reason I needed to change it in the first place is that I had a horrible night's sleep last night. Mostly owing to the fact that I was stupid and had the chocolate about 7 PM. I know how even a little bit of chocolate/caffeine affects my brain and sure enough, it was 'excited' for lack of a better way of putting it and there was no restfullness in what little sleep I did get. But the other factor was the stuffy nose I had which I feel sure is probably due to the whey protein powder. I've had issues with that in the past. I was just hoping it might be different this time. But a stuffy nose for me is a serious issue as I clench my teeth at night so if I can't breathe through my nose then I don't get a lot of oxygen.

I had felt compelled to use the protein powder however, in order to keep my protein levels up, but after reading over Peter's blog, Hyperlipid, I decided not to worry about it for just now and see how I feel.

I know my diet is very monotonous right now - burger, shake, bacon and eggs - but my previous fast food diet was pretty monotonous as well. But right now I need something quick and easy to fall back on as I try out new recipes. I mean ideally, I wouldn't have just jumped into this cold turkey. I would have taken a few months and found enough recipes I liked instead of doing what I'm doing now which is scrambling around after the fact. But c'est la vie. I'm muddling my way through.

I have noticed continued improvement in my inflammation levels as I've dropped the nightshades out of my diet. (I have mentioned that in a prior post right? I need to review what I've written before because I have trouble remembering if I've posted something or if I just thought about posting something. ) The aches in the big joint of my thumbs are considerably diminished. I'm going to try to eliminate all dairy now to see if that helps even more and especially if it helps my leg rash. It's still flaring up. God knows what's causing it. I don't have much left to eliminate at this point.

I'm still taking the glutamine and systemic enzymes on an empty stomach everyday hoping to speed up the healing of my gut lining. I had to stop taking the glutamine at night though as it does stimulate the brain and it was making it hard for me to sleep.

So, to finish, first meal was a hamburger with bacon, mayonnaise and some provolone cheese that I still had hanging around in the fridge with romaine lettuce leaves for the bun. It's very messy. I ate some more of the coconut/lemon custard, which I'm getting close to finishing. Then I had the coconut milk/peach drink. I'm back to work today so wasn't home for dinner and didn't get any eggs, but I did take some bacon in the car with me and ate that so I think I got most of my calories in for today anyway. And I wasn't hungry this evening so not getting the eggs didn't matter.